I'll never be what you want...

——-»» Still, can’t help but smile. I like someone like yoooong choding. :)

Makes me want to produce my own song… :)

What’s done is done. What to do?? Take a deep breath, hold it in,  and let it go. Then do something that would put you in a better position, act on it, and hope for the best. Because if not… for how long do you intend to be in that position/ situation?

———»> Someone, take me away…I’m tuning into someone I really don’t know. Take me away, please? I don’t like being here. I need space. I need to walk away. Please? take me away and bring back the “me” a year ago.

——-»> Well, I just got home and found out that I will be sharing my room with someone for who knows how long… I know this may sound like “oh! what the hell… stop being maarte.” or “Parang un lang? nagrereklamo na.” but…

Do you know that feeling that they *my family/parents* took your whole life and continues to take it. You obey their major decisions all the time. You don’t have a word for your own life. The only place that you can decide for your own is in your room. It’s your safe heaven. Your the boss there, and no one can disobey. It’s also the place where in you can hide from your family. Then all of a sudden, without even consulting you, you found unfamiliar things in your room! aaaaaaa!
Pati ako natatawa, pero un talaga ung pumasok sa isip ko eh.. Pati ba naman privacy ko gusto niyong tanggalin sakin??

Sobrang drama, at parang walang kasense sense… idagdag o na ung parang baliw… Kahit ako kung mabasa ko to sa iba, baka maasar ako sa nagsulat eh.. kaso, iba ung pinagdadaanan ko ngayon eh.. at kelangan ko ilabas.. kaya ayan…

** I want someone to talk to about random things whenever I want to. Someone I could call in the middle of the night whenever I wanted to go out and have some air. Someone who would hear every sentiment I have. Someone who would dare to say things that I didn’t want to hear, knowing that it is for my sake. Someone I could do things with like riding a bike, jog, practice playing the guitar, write some music with, go to a karaoke with, go to the mall or to the park, watch movies, or just simply hang-out inside the house. Someone that can be a “choding” and play around with me but at the same time can handle different situations maturely. Someone whom I would have a misunderstanding with, but will choose to listen first before getting into a conclusion. Someone that would accept my flaws and love me as much as I love him. 

———-» I was cleaning my room and found a paper (actually a lot of paper with random thoughts written in it). Wala lang, may nakasulat na “I wrote this after watching a Korean series”. Whew..  I just still feel the same way kahit after a long time na. Makakahanap pa ba ko ng ganitong tao?? (Sana!)

zodiacccc:

1. Watch a play or musical.
2. Go on a safari.
3. Karaoke.
4. Sunbathing.
5. Play charades.
6. Make a movie starring both of you.
7. Camera-whore.
8. Build an indoor/outdoor fort.
9. Mess up their hair.
10. Crash a party.
11. Tell real or made-up stories.
12. Go dancing.

——-»> almost perfect… *i don’t like #4* :)